Beautiful Some-what surprising British Summer
Beautiful Some-what surprising British Summer
Hey Bloggers it’s been a while , but I’m lazy and bla bla blaaah.So anyway just a quick post abut nights out, I don’t normally go out often maybe once or twice a month max. Few reasons include money and drama. I always end up spending more then I expect no matter how careful I am, I mean I could leave my card at home but what about emergencies? What if I somehow end up stranded and need to get money out for a cab? What if I’m on the verge of drunken starvation and need money for a kebab? Its serious out there.
So I went out with a ‘friend’ on Friday, well she’s the girlfriend of my boyfriends friend. P we we’ll call her and D is her man. Ok so the bf was going on a boys night out and I was out with P and one of her close friends, we started out pre-drinking in a lovely pub, having girly talks and the beginning’s on a girly night. Not long after a few shots and a couple vodkas D calls P. “Oh god here we go” I think instantly. Why? your asking, well some people love a good drama and can not handle their alcohol…
Let me take you back a few weeks to a Friday night out, a night we were all looking forward too. We all turn up to a pub in Camden and the dirks are flowing, then we all decided to move to the cub about 7 of us. The boyfriend and I mingle, dance and have a good time before I get a call from P in hysterics saying that D is drunk and being a total C%^& which now seems the common thing when we go out.
Turns out he had been punch by some random guy for mouthing off and been having a go at P for no reason then his insecurity and inability to control him self on alcohol. This argument went on for hours and while I stood in the street comforting P as she panicked about if D would let her stay at his, my boyfriend tried to calm down D. Its comes to the point when D comes over to P and I and I go to speak before he begins scream insults at me. I wont go into too much(don’t worry no one fought) but lets just say my boyfriend is a brilliant guy and knows when his ‘friends’ are in the wrong and when to protect me.
The point of the story is that when you go out with some people they love to cause drama and ruin everyone’s night, expect you to help them sort out the mess then tell you to mind your own business and not to get involved. So when P call D on Friday whilst us girls were at the club drunkenly shouting at her saying come meet them I new that I would avid them both for the rest of the night as I wanted to get home happy and at a decent time.
The thing is this D guy never used to be like this when we were out with him and his ex GF of 5 years. Is he really insecure and controlling over P or just a physco?
Oh and that night with all the drama I spent about £70 and was angry by the end of night!!
How do people do this all the time? I mean I am absolutely bored out of my mind. The funny thing is when I was working I had money to do all the things I wanted to do but no time, now I have all the time in the world but no money and I hate it so much.
I have applied for about ten jobs already and have a few more on my list to apply for..and I am adamant that I will not be going back to retail god help me!
Yesterday I think I nearly lost my mind from boredom, today wasn’t as bad but this is only the beginning!
What if I’m going to go mad and become homeless….
…and surprisingly I’m not panicking about it. (I mean I worry about everything usually)
My contract ending at my office job recently and I am now in search for a new job. Even though I have a phone and debt bill to pay I’m not too worried, I mean it’s not rent and it’s not household bills (I help pay these but I have support from the Mr and his family so we’re not on our own). I see this as a new opportunity to find something great more enjoyable and gain more experience to add to my CV.
I liked my job but I lost my passion and the novelty wore off quick, like I mentioned in a previous blog post, I get bored very quickly.
I love the thrill of job interviews and new environments to adapt to, and I always want more!
Wish me luck on my job search and my future adventures of eventually become an adult…erm…when does that happen?
So I’m sitting at my desk at work feeling like crap only in my head though. I’m pretty sure it’s just my hormones but that’s doesn’t make my point irrelevant!
It’s not that I hate my job, because I don’t. I’m happy to have an office job especially over my old retail jobs and I’m grateful to even have a job at all, as I know some people aren’t so lucky.
It’s just that this 9-5 job just doesn’t do it for me, again I prefer it over the random shifts you get retail and I like the routine. But I think I just don’t like working in general, that makes me sound lazy doesn’t it? Maybe I am lazy and yeah I don’t enjoy gettin up at 6am and coming home at 7:30pm, however that’s not the only reason.
I get bored easily, like very easily. “But only boring people get bored” yeah yeah whatever I don’t believe that crap. I just can’t have the same routine all the time and I hate getting up early for the same routine. All I want to do is travel the world, and gain experience of and from life before I find and settle into a job that is right for me, although I don’t know what the hell that is!
Also I can’t actually afford to travel, so I have to work in order to save but my saving skills are worse then my attention span. It’s a catch 22? Also I’m incredibly weak minded, this is something I don’t like I admit but it’s true. It gets me down feeling like things are never changing, that’s why I’ve had 3 jobs in the span of a year an a half.
I just don’t get how my colleagues can sit in this office for 6 years or so and not feel depressed when they drag themselves out of bed every morning. Money is an important aspect to a job for me however shallow that is, but that’s not enough, especially when you work 40 hours a week and don’t even have time to spend it.
I am also fickle to say the least, I wanted to be a film director, and I studied media at college, then I wanted to be video game developer, and studied this at college, a writer and god knows why else. Although I would still love to get payed to write things! I dropped out of uni within the first few months because again I got bored and felt it wasn’t right for me. Point being I need to hurry up and decide what I want, what makes me happy and what can pay the bills at the same time..
I don’t know where I’m going or what to do next, every time I start something new its not long before I’m already thinking about what I can do next. I personally see this as a positive thing, as it keeps me wanting more and striving to achieve more. But having patience is something I need, I also need to accept that things take a while and you have to start from the bottom to reach to the top (Drake reference).
Why do I struggle to be happy with things the way they are? and accept that if I work hard and save maybe one day I’ll be doing something that involves me waking up in the morning and feeling excited to start the day.
Is it actually possible to enjoy a job!?